“For you formed my inward parts; you knit me together in my mother’s womb… Your eyes saw my unformed substance. In your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them.”Psalm 139 ESV
It hit me during this first session with my counselor: there’s a blueprint! I imagined a literal blueprint on God’s desk filled with every detail about me. It’s flawless and perfect. It’s who I really am.
I wonder what’s in it?
Learning to love yourself is a difficult journey–especially if you’ve never done it before. To make matters worse, most sermons highlight ways to improve. I was never taught to love myself growing up.
To someone struggling with self-hatred, it just adds more fuel to the fire. Sometimes it seems like Christians believe loving yourself is a bad thing. My counselor said it in a way I’ve never heard before: “But God commands you to love yourself. ‘Love the Lord your God… and love your neighbor as yourself.’ He commands you to love yourself.”
That command is a pretty important one at that! Jesus said that THIS commandment “sums up the Law and the Prophets.” If we just obey this ONE command, we’ll be obeying every command: Love God and love your neighbor as yourself.
Isn’t that encouraging? There’s a blueprint of everything you are and God has it. It’s what He died to redeem. In Jesus name, I can be put back together again. And loving who I really am is SUPER important to God!
I guess I love it because it says to me that I’m still valuable the way I am. I’m worth fighting for. It also means that–as my counselor also brought up–that God has a place for me in the world.
What does loving yourself look like? What does loving God look like? I’m excited to find out!